Today, I was an interior decorator…

by prettying up my room. It’s pointless because I’ll be moving into my mumma’s home in a few days. I had been cleaning and organizing when I got bit by the decorating bug. Fine by me.

The top of my dresser. I still need to subtract something but, I can't decide which.

Focal piece for my nighstand. I bunched together some peacock feathers, rhinestone buds, clearance roses from halloween, and a handmade ceramic base.

This ceramic piece was made by MOI!

Up close of the piece. I love the rhinestone buds.

Also, I miss my seeesterr.

Christmas with my honey. We matched our tops on purpose.

Not much else to say about today. A lot of stuff happened. I just don’t want to talk about it. I’ll get all worked up and stressed again. So, for the rest of my evening I will be blog reading. It’s fantastic escapism. I just live vicariously through all of you.


I feel kind of, ehh, today…

My sister just moved out this evening. Boo.  Not much to say on that topic. It sucks when your soul mate no longer lives with you.

Sissy and I on Thanksgiving Eve last year. My fave photo of us.

Next, my classes are sucky again this semester. I can only take one in my city and I have to make the effin’ long commute to take my other two. Plus, field work is all the way out there, too. It’s going to be another exhausting semester.

I am having some issues with wanting to lose weight the past two days. I want to lose so freakin badly. I think it’s because the weather has prevented me from running for nearly a week now. When I don’t run I forget that I want to be healthy so that I can be an awesome runner. I always have to have a goal and if it’s not a deliberately healthy goal, then losing weight becomes my priority. I think I need to run tomorrow regardless of the weather or else my head is likely to continue its downward spiral.

Today is what I ate Wednesday in blogland. I have no photos to show. Boo hoo. I ‘ll tell you what I had to eat already today…

Breakfast= Apple

Lunch= Bag of iceberg salad and carrot sticks

Dinner= Two Quesadillas made with Smart and Delicious Tortillas spread with weight watchers swiss cheese and salsa. and…

Bean burger patty that I made yesterday (white beans, s&p, 2 tbsp salsa, and cumin), pan-fried and topped with BBQ sauce and…

broccoli and cauliflower stir fried with pretty much every spice in my pantry (mostly cinnamon and onion powder), soy sauce, and grape jelly (the jelly ends up like a sweet glaze).

That’s it so far. Wait!!! I actually bought coffee creamer today. Big deal, trust me. It’s a special holiday flavor, Brown Sugar and Maple. Just right, It sweetened my coffee without overpowering it. I love maple so much. It makes me happy.

I still have to eat a lot more tonight if I’m going to prevent myself from losing weight. All of my food only totals 520 calories. That’s terrible. I had to work from 9-5 today, reorganizing stock rooms and I don’t know how I had the energy to do it having eaten only that measly breakfast and lunch. I’ll probably have 2 skinny cow ice cream cups and two chocolate vitamuffin tops spread with lots of pb, that will add an extra 800 calories to my day bringing my grand total up to…… 1220 for the day! That’s really pathetic for me. See, this is what happens if I don’t run.

I promise not to talk about calories and all of this mess very often. I am just having a particularly weird day. I always know if I’m having an off day because I smoke like a chimney and if I’m happy then I forget all about cigarettes and won’t have one.

Crappy post, I just needed to talk about my day. Now, I am just rambling.

Tell me something nice about your day, or a joke, or something light-hearted.

Today, I was a fiscally responsible adult…

Oh yes, I completed my tax returns from 2009/10. I did not file for the past two years. Why, you might ask? Because, finances make me throw up. I hate dealing with money. I decided that I will change all of that in 2012. I am not an irresponsible spender, I am just a financial avoider. I have insurance, credit cards, students loans, and other miscellanea that I choose to avoid paying because, like I said, I hate dealing with my money. I found out today that my student loans went back into deferment because I am back in school. So, huge weight off my shoulders. My previous tax returns will pay off a credit card that I used three years ago to pay for my rent/food/books when I lived on campus. Another huge relief for me. And, when I get this year’s tax returns, it will pay off the remainder of my credit card debt. Freedom!! This is what my blog is all about, becoming what I could have been, and this time I am becoming responsible for my financial state.

I am also becoming Ripped in 30, Jillian Michaels style. I did part 4 of the program for the first time today, I enjoyed that workout fo’ sho’. I am already sore and I love it. I wanted to go for a 6 mile run this morning but, Michigan finally realized it’s winter and dropped to 10 degrees. So, yeah, running was a no-go. I do need to decide which two half marathons I want to run and register so that I am committed. I think that one in June and September will be good. The marathon I want to run is the end of October so those two halfs should be timed pretty well. Does anybody have a good marathon training program? I want it. Now.

I am also starting to miss doing makeup. I am so sad that there isn’t a market for freelance makeup artistry around my area. Here is a photo of me at work, sigh…

Oh well, once I graduate I will once again have a job that I am passionate about. Just so you know (cuz I know you wanna know), my DREAM job is to teach middle school science in a low-income school in PORTLAND. Portland is my favorite city of all time. It’s so low-key, yet, there is always something to do. Saturday market, coffee shops open mics, museums, shopping, good food, art shows, festivals, and so much more. It’s only an hour to the mountains, two hours to the ocean. The weather is mild, the people are amazing. AHH!!! I want to go right now!!!!



What is your dream job?

What is a good marathon training program?

p.s. every single time I type “marathon” I end up typing “marathong”. I can not figure out how I manage to do that, one of these days it’s going to make it past my edits and into a blog post.

I can’t wait.

New Year’s Eve, yeah, it happened…

and I participated in it. Went to my fave bar, a jazzy type club, I went alone. I am strange like that. The bartender is amazing, she treats me well. She gives me the leftovers from the drinks she makes in the shaker thinger bobber. So, lots of free booze. Also, a couple bought me a glass of wine. Then, my friend Dr. Jameson showed up and bought me a glass of wine, as well. I left at 11:40 to go to the party my college church group was having. I wanted to ring in the new year with those who love me the most. My family through God. (and bless them, no one even mentioned that I had noticeably been drinking)

Last year, I dropped the ball at a dive bar and kissed a total doucher. Who, since that night, has dropped out of my life completely. My relationship with him drove me deeper in E.D. territory. I’m a much better person now than a year ago. I won’t lay out the details of it, too much to say. My e.d. is better in some ways and worse in others and that part sucks hard. But, overall, I’m happier and healthier and my life is completely changing. I’m moving back in with my mom (love her so much), quit my job (hate it so much), my sister and I will graduate this year, my brother will get married in February. So. Much.Change. All of it good for once.

I don’t make resolutions but, I do set goals. The only goal I had last year was to lose enough weight to scare people, mission accomplished but, a success it was not.

This year I have a few goals.

Run two half marathons. Run one marathon.


Make my baby sister (13 isn’t really a baby) my friend.

Create more normal eating habits (I’m not striving for perfection here but, I want all purging behavior gone, to eat the majority of my calories during the day instead of starving until 10 pm)

Maintain my weight and quit trying to get down to 100 pounds

There you have it. That’s all I have to say on the subject of New Year’s what-nots and what-have-you’s. I will leave you with a photo of me in my party dress. It’s a crappy photo as usual but, hey the bathroom is the only place I can get even mediocre lighting and have access to a mirror for posing.

Congratulations to all on making it to this New Year!! God Bless your lives. Love each other and your selves.